Strong Dam

I turned out to be uncomfortable with all the questions dedicated to me lately. I feel unintentionally intimidated. Yes, this is just me. There's no wrong with the others. I know it's surely because of my introvert cage in my head. Those kind of uncomfortable thoughts who always haunt me at the moment they start to get to know me further and further with horrrrrible questions. There is always a question while I don't like being questioned because I would not like to even ask them. I prefer to watch, instead, with my all consciousness I would rather to watch and read and try to understand everything by my self. But today I start to realize, their eagerness to know is such a strong dam. And it can be stronger when some motifs push. They just can't wait. 

Why do they long for my lips to tell something they expect me to? They ask, ask again, ask more, never stop asking. I replied, once and more. I answered what I know and I want to. But why after all my hard decision to answer those questions, they innocently showed me disappointment. They wanted more for God's sake! Or else, my answer was not what they wanted to hear. Then buddy, tell me what was your volition? What kind of answer? I don't have two answers and that's all I have. I gave you all I know about my self. I tried to tell you no lies, wholeheartedly. Why you do that to me? Do correct me if I am wrong, but don't urge me to say what I'm not, what I don't, because I will not. Don't do me like that.

See? I seem building a wall inside of me. Wall that has some doors. Some doors that are open, are just open. No matter what time is it, they are just open 24/7, for everyone. But the other doors, those specific doors with all the mounted name-board in front of it, unfortunately can not be available in every knock you do. Is that wrong for having named doors that are not always available to be open in every knock? Forgive me that I have a wall, and I'll forgive you for having a unbelievable curiousness that I called 'strong dam'. I just don't want my own city gets flood. Thank you.