3 Dimentions (?)

Heyya
How's your day been?
Can't stop laughing at the pict
Turns out you've that weird serious face
LMAO

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Salam damai \m/

Madam?

Terimakasih Tuhan karena Engkau telah memberikan beberapa petunjuk untuk mengisi teka-teki yang selama ini tersimpan disana. Terimakasih, karena Engkau telah berikanku pencerahan mengenai alur cerita dari semuanya ini. Aku tidak mengerti, atau mungkin aku belum mengerti. Namun ku yakin kan kutemukan jawaban itu. Telah Kau berikan aku sedikit kejelasan mengenai pertanyaan besarku pada hari itu. Hari dimana aku dihadapkan dengan kenyataan yang tidak semestinya aku alami, karena aku sudah seperti ini. Hal tersebut tidak aku butuhkan lagi. Mereka tidak salah, aku tidak juga benar. Hanya bagiku terdapat keganjalan, tidak seperti itu jalannya, caranya. Kamu kan orang pintar. Hingga sekian jam setelah kejadian itu, aku tertegun dan terus berpikir. Berpikir, berpikir, dan berpikir. Sungguh berpikir. Dan berpikir. Berpikir.

Berpikir..

Apabila Madam menginginkan kebahagiaanku, ambilah. Karena dia hanya sebagian dari kehidupanku, bukan segalanya. Yang merupakan segalanya bagiku adalah jauh lebih penting dari dia. Dan itu bukan urusanmu. Aku menghormatimu, Madam, lebih dari yang kau (mungkin) tau. Aku juga mengerti kegelisahanmu, karena aku juga perempuan. Hanya saja, aku belum sepenuhnya matang. Tidak seperti kamu yang lahir jauh sebelum aku. Seluk beluk raut ekpresimu sangat kumengerti, apabila ada orang yang bertanya tentang satu hal. Satu hal, yang juga kini, sangat kucintai. Dan aku berjanji, akan membuatnya lebih dari yang kau kira daripadaku.

Madam, anggaplah aku sedemikian adanya. Tidak usah kau tambahkan embel-embel lain. Sudah cukup bagiku selama ini. Dia yang milikmu, yasudah.. milikmu. Aku juga memiliki yang lain, yang jauh lebih berarti dari semuanya ini. Kamu tau? Kata-katamu pada saat malam itu, membuatku ingin merobek wajahmu. Beraninya dirimu. Ingin rasanya kutentang segala pernyataanmu, dengan cara memuntahkan kata-kata yang tidak diajarkan orang tuaku. Namun lalu kuingat Tuhanku.

Madam tidak harus ambil pusing dengan celotehku. Kadang memang kau secuek batu, namun detik berikutnya pun kau bisa serapuh tissue. Tipis, dan mudah basah. Baaah.. biarkan lah aku bergumam, toh tidak berpengaruh pada dinastimu. Biarkan aku beropini, berinteraksi, berambisi, toh tidak melunturkan kecantikanmu???? Apa sih yang membuat kamu begitu? Kamu sayang ya sama aku? Enggak juga kan? Biasa aja kan? Lalu? Chill man..

Berpikir..

Selanjutnya, kembali ke insiden itu. Aku dengar kamu ya team creativenya? Bagus. Kamu tau tidak, aku tertegun mendengarnya. Memang sih, aku melihat kamu berbisik-bisik dengan orang kaya raya itu, dan beliau mengangguk-angguk. (tertawa) ternyata kalian sudah dekat ya, baru tau..

Berpikir..

Apabila rencana di balik itu terpuji, terimakasih ya. Aku senang sih, awalnya. Namun maaf, hal itu malah menguras energi berpikirku. Sialan. Sudah kuduga kan, itu tidak mungkin. Benar-benar tidak mungkin. Bahkan aku sudah lelah berharap, mungkin, dari tiga tahun yang lalu. Dan, ternyata? Hidupku aman-aman saja.

Berpikir..

Satu hal, kapanpun Madam ingin bicara denganku. Angkat ponselmu, katakan padaku. Aku akan datang kesitu. Dan akan Madam dengar, kesaksian gadis kecil yang penuh luka, namun ingin menyelesaikan perkara. Meskipun ia tahu, hujan badai akan menerjang wajahnya, kala itu.. kita tidak akan hanya berdua. Ada satu, dia penolongku.

Giliran kamu,

berpikir..

There's something wrong with my room mate~

Hello, cuma mau share tentang ke-otis-an room mate gue, namanya Rizki Amelia, she has a tiny body yet huge ideas. She's a busy student, lol, because her faculty hasn't finished the ospek thingie. Oops :-P So, it becomes usual getting her back from campus in a very afternoon. Well, back to the topic. Firstly I have to take a breath deeply before I honestly tell you about this. So, the Rizki Amelia, or usually called as Kiky, readers, turns out that she is very nuts. Omg. You'll find it if she starts getting stressed out because of her lecture assignments, ospek assignments, or maybe his boyfie. Nah, udah deh. Mabok lah dia! Ini nih side effects kalo dia udah stressed out:

Pertama, setelah dia masuk kamar, dgn gaya ngetok pintunya yg kayak putri solo bar poso telung wulan, alias pelan dan lemes banget, dia ngetok kurang lebih tiga kali, naaah setelah itu lo bakal liat sosok muka paling flat se-galaksi Bima Sakti. Lalu, masuk lah dia, dan paling gue cm bilang "baru pulang.." dan kiky jawab "iya nih.. capek banget gue ruuum"

Kedua, setelah beberes dgn stuffs, dia bakal.. emm tergantung situasi dan kondisi pada hari itu. Kalo biasa aja, ya paling terus makan, online, malemnya belajar, yaaah anak muda jaman sekarang laaah. Tapi kalo dia lagi rebek, naaaah, waiki, lo bakal ngeliat sosok gadis berambut panjang berbody kurus berwajah cantik mondar-mandir tuh di kamar kayak ada deh puluhan kali, demi hanya untuk mencari solusi dari apa yang dia pikirkan pada saat itu #DamnItsTrue

Ketiga, lo bakal denger dia ngomel sengomel sedumel-dumelnya orang. Dan bahkan dia bisa me-melodikan omelannya itu

"mau nangis gue, parah.."
"lo bisa bayangin ga sih, ruum"
"demi apa...........astaghfirullohhh........"
"mau maraah gabisa, karena udah capek.."
"aaah...binguuuung...."

Itu diucapin satu menit dua menit tiga menit bisa berkali-kali. Dan kalo ngedumel-dumel gitu paling ya cuma gue tanggepin

"yaudalaya ki..."

Tapi kalo serius, dan emang butuh solve mujarab, baru deh kita ngobrol tuh gimana caranya supaya tu bocah gak rebek lagi. Gue juga sih kalo rebek harus dapet masukan brilliant baru bisa tenang, dan dia juga suka ngasih masukan-masukan gitu. Hihi ♥♥♥

However, ini tadi sore (abis magrib) sampe saat ini 9:32 PM percil satu itu belom tenang juga karena adalah satu kegalauan dia tentang kuliah sm organisasi bahkan sampe events apa aja yg bakal dia attend di minggu ini. Saking rebeknya, nih, you have to take a look these picture. It proves that there's something wrong with her.

And this is the worst..

I'm seriously lost of words, guys, she completely makes me crazy. I just could laugh so loud at that time and took these pictures. Besides, I'm so glad knowing that there's someone way crazier than ME! Yippppiiiieeee! :DD

Lootja

Obama's coming to town!

05.38 a.m - Firstly we went to the UI railway station for getting the ticket by showing our KTM



06. 18 a.m - This is near the Menara Air UI, everybody's waiting their turn for x-ray checking thingie
Yea, you see batik everywhere? That's the dress code :-)
I saw somebodies aside, wearing their almamater labeled President University, STAN, Padjajaran University etc




Me..hhe (?)
Anyways it was so crowded and sultry, gaah
So, It was a fake smile, lol
(betewe sape tuh ikut mejeng di belakang, kacamata, woo, hakdez)


And, there he was!
One thing that surprised us, he gave a nice ice-breaking by saying "Pulang kampung, nih" xxxo



Giving super briliant speech with a great performance
He talked about education, pluralism, and establishment
Oh man, how I admire the way he talks, walks, smiles, laughs, say "terimakasih" etc etc

Lucky them who sit in the front rowwwww!
They could have his shake-hand + face-to-face and ++++
aaaa



Here the audience, downstairs's for the state functionary, rector, dozens
Upstairs for us, academia :P



Me and best friends
Tya and Kiky :3

Unforgettable 30 minutes everrrrr!
Lootja xx

Aku Ingin - Sapardi Djoko Damono

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

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Just another to-be-honest, baru ngeh ada puisi sebagus ini waktu kuliah (shoot me in the head) pertama kali dapet pas retret di Puncak kemaren, disuruh perform musikalitas gitu kan, tp pas lagi stuck abis, terus minta wangsit dari Mbah Google deh, dan nemu puisi ini. Pertama kali liat, baca, langsung damn.. parah. Sakit banget ni puisi. Dan lagi-lagi Pak Djoko, untuk kali ini Djoko Darmono, thanks Pak puisinya, luar biasa mengguncang. Zillions thumbs up! Alabyu, pak!

Nothing

Hey, how are ya doin'?
Does everything stay well?
Stay fine? :)

Me just done studying, and I don't know I think I'm addicted to you, blogger. You are the only thing that I want to kiss firstly when these heaps of boredom strike me. Well to be honest my tonight-study should haven't finished yet. But oh dear, please just give me a break for a while, I'm deadly stuck here. I am not that nerd. So, let's postpone it. (don't tell my dad) Anyway, I couldn't have a call with anyone tonight. Yea just like everyone's talking, there's one damned provider getting effed up. It became usual receiving messages one hour or maybe two hours late. Geez. They must be stop kidding :l The second anyway is, I'm back missing my mother. Aghhhh. What the hell is going with me??? Anyone??? Can you explain??? Ergh. I hate being childish like this. SO NOT ANY KIND OF ME. It really reminds me of what I were. Oh please, stop it, God?

That picture's taken about 5 years or maybe six in Kaliurang, Jogjakarta
She hold me, hugged me right from the back of my waist
She smiled, not for me
But for everyone who is looking at this pict
She wanted to tell everyone that she loved me
Aight?

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Well I can't help my self from tears
Goodbye.

Lootja xx

Another rainy story..

Here all me
With a thick sweater I wore
A cup of coffee ready to drink
Listening to John Mayer's

Mom,

I'm just wondering why the raindrops always fall in the evening lately
Good moment, good time, they used to accompany me napping
It's cold.. So, hows there? Is it cold, like here?
I believe you're doing good right there :)

There, in our room in our second hometown
In the rainy days like this is the warm moment I get from you
You used to cooked me something even just a simple soup
Well, I officially miss you

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Mom, I am actually afraid
I am afraid I can't stand it if I am in ruins
My head's overwhelmed by theories and messes
They always try to weaken my knees

Aside, I know I am in limitation
No, it's not about association limitation, a serious illness or what
It's not about mine but them
I've been realizing, that I have no much time anymore
It's counting down.. I know

I envy with my siblings
With our far birth spacing between me and my brothers
They've had their enough time with you, and dad
But It's sad seeing what they're doing

I am not going to say that my life is not fair, I am not
I know It's not fair for others esp them who don't have family
But sometimes I couldn't say I am that glad happily
I couldn't say my day was great
when everything for me was only good
Tell me what's happening Mommy..

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Pray for me and my mom, Saint Lucia
Always show me the right way
Lootja xx

Me want you! Short haircut!

Kyaaaa
Me really want that short-fake-haircut ~('.'~) (~'.')~
But my daddy says no, and no and no *sigh
Oh man I'm craving for the best short haircut
Anyone would to flatter my daddy?

Lootja Xx

Honey Bee

► Zee Avi - Honey Bee

I am a honey bee
Shunned off from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen♥

Sweet lyrics, aight?
Get the song here!

Aaa I want to be a good guitarist
My best friend often teach me how to play
But ergh It never give a significant progress
Me sucks --
I have to learn guitar seriously
I DO HAVE TO!
But when? La la laa (let's singing)
Well, maybe somedayyyy haha
what kind of answer --

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Lootja xx

Taken By Trees~

There isn't much I feel I need
A solid soul, and the blood I bleed
But with a little cat and by spouse
I only want a proper house

I don't care for fancy things
Or to take part in a freshest way
But to provide for my mind to ask
I'll work hard, on my father's grave
father's grave

Go on, run and do overlap!

It's been a month I'm away from them, kind of strange
The hardest part is when you get a chance to get back
But you couldn't even choice, Geez

But I barely know this is it, this is what people called life
Enjoy its ups&downs, you'll find anytime when your friends tell you right
But you strongly think it's left, and so on

The point is you definitely need a commitment, not a weak one
Somehow you have to grow, kids
Go on, run and do overlap!

Selamat Datang Pejuang Muda Indonesia!

PSAUI - Balairung
18 - 19 Agustus 2010

OKK UI 2010 - Siap Mengabdi!

That was mesmerizing!
Big thanks for the welcoming ceremony
Especially to the committees and special guests
Najwa Shihab, and others (I'm sorry I forget their name) lol

PSAF - Fak. Hukum UI
20 - 21 Agustus 2010

FHUI 2010 - Kami adalah satu! (grok)

It was really awesome
I like the ending of this moment
May I write in here, seniors?
Tee-hee

We thought that we'll have some rest after
we're doing ospek-thingie for these three week in FH UI
Ha-ha surprisingly there's still some punishment assignment to be done two weeks ahead
Beautiful!

Anyway, suka banget deh sama yel-yel FH
Pertama kali denger, merinding bok
Bikin semangat banget
I just wanna say Thank God for everything You lately gave to my life
I love You, Jesus Christ :-)

We're two of a kind, forever we've been combined~

Thinking of you
It all comes in view
I believe we came from the same cloud
Two drops in the ocean
Tell me again
The story of when we
We will be together one day

We're two of a kind
Forever we've been combined
Though the current will pull us apart
Two drops in the ocean
You are part of me
The other side of the sea
And we will be together one day

I love this song,
I often listen to this in my bed,
in the class, bus, train, hahaha
thanks 311 for the old nice song.
Keep creating creativity xx-0♥

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Pupu :3

tee-hee - random - that's my lovely sweety dolly - his name is pupu hahaha - he's 17 years old yeah same with me \m/ - he has a good smell and soft body - yet he's kinda abal - mehehe - he's a really patient doll on earth - I used to kiss, hug, even poke him - yea whenever I want - nyunyuu ♥♥♥

Gemesssh gemesssh gemesssh ♥

There's a lot of adorable kids here. Can't wait to have one on my own tee-hee ☺
Irrrgggghhhh gemuesnyaaaa xxxx

P.s:
It seems like from now I'll continously collect kid's picture in my blog
xxx

Wishin' you a very Happy Birthday, sweethearts ♥

Happy Blessed-Day to my twin nephews Mathias & Moses (June 30th)
and my beloved girlfriends Neza & Chintamy (July 3rd and 4th)

Wishin' you a life packed with loads of happiness, sunny smiles, & lotta love
Hope you have a very Happy Birthdaaaaaay

♥♥♥



Seneng deh bikin sahabat seneng
I love you so bad
Neza Chintamy Mira Fara Oka Tante Yanti

gaaaaah
It's sad realizing that I'll be leaving soon
:(:(:(

For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word that makes you doubt me

I've seen u since
Take all I say never react
I had to say most of it
I promised I'll be nice from now on

Hide it in every little chance I seem to hurt u
Hide me from everything I do that makes u doubt me
Hide it in every little chance I seem to hurt u
Hide me from everything I do that makes u doubt me

For all I try to say I shy away
I seem to hurt you
For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word
That makes you doubt me

Pa pa pa pa... most... I promise I'll be nice from now on
For every stupid shout it's thougtless word
O I love u... sure, I love u... o I love u... sure, I love u
For all I try to say I shy away
I seem to hurt you
For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word
That makes you doubt me

Pa pa pa pa
For all I try to say I shy away
For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word
Hide it in every little chance I seem to hurt u
Hide me from everything I do that makes u doubt me

They say bad beginnings make happy endings ☺

Let the raindrops the air and strongly fall to the ground, because that's when they're gonna start their circulation. And if you're now standing in the seashore, you feel your feet are wet with some sands sticked on it. Then when you look ahead, you'll see an extremely wide blue field, which is the ocean. Look above, until you realize you're standing beneath the amazing sky. Listen to the wave, the bird's tweet, the windy air. You're accompanied by them, even you don't really care. Just like what I feel now. Feeling heartless, careless, mm. I do believe that everything will be healed by itself, all depend on you, the key is your behavior. Time goes by, then you'll find the belated right time to realize what you have before and what you surprisingly have now. Exactly, firstly you feel very stupid, why do you have to realize now? Because sometimes people just can realize what they have, when it's gone already. Weird and irritating.

I don't know.. I think I'm about to re-construct my mindset. I want it set mature and responsible. I will more listen what my daddy says, and totally do what my daddy wants. OMG. I'm in danger. Are you guys doing the same with me? Frankly, I feel afraid because what I've been striving now, what I've been running for now, It's only for my daddy, well.... I'd be nicer if I write "It's only for my family" Ha. I really have no idea, what would my life be, if there's my dad in my back. GROOOOK knp mellow!!!! *skip* Ahhh I don't want expect much, It'll got me lazy and childish. Ouch no waaaaay, kid. I am seventeen now. Have to be better each day, yeay yeay ☺

I am on the threshold of some brighter thing

I’ve got to get out of whatever I’m in
Find a point with my way back to the beginning
I’ve had it up to here with being nowhere near
I’m through with making do, I’m cutting to a point that’s new

‘Cos I am on the threshold of some brighter thing
Not many understand that all I wanna do is sing
My words hold me in place, they help to keep me safe
Push my back against the wall and catch me, if I fall
Catch me, if I fall

With the sun in my eyes and the world at my feet
My love’s in the music, the music’s in me…..

"It's a different day everyday
Don't want you to walk alone
But how can we carry on
When all of these things have gone"

Parampaa ☻

Helloooo, It feels very long time no blogging, doesn't it? In fact there were so many stories happened to me. Tee-hee. Well let me tell you one by one, fyufyufyu :D

1. I'm finally graduated from Senior High School!
Feel glad indeed yet, in the other side I feel forlorn because I have to be apart with my beloved classmates, the teachers, canteen, and many others. Huuu ☹

2. Since I've been having super long day off, I did some sweet revenge; tee-hee :D
Hang out, of course! Dvds marathon, hair treatment, cooking, swimming, jogging, skipping, stroll downtown, and part time job at Pizza Hut :-) Haha, does it sound hedons? Not really, just as I knew that there's a vacancy to be a part timer at Pizza Hut, I dashed out preparing all the requirement. And surprisingly I'm accepted! Myiwww :3 Too bad I could not stay working on it any longer, because I had to prepared all my college thingie atm. But, I am very thankful for all the experiences, once again, thank you, Pizza Hut :-)


3. Emmmmmm firstly I want to give huge thanks for You, God, now I am officially a part of Law Faculty, University of Indonesia. God, I-still-can't-believe-it. Zillions thanks for You, Jesus, Saint Marry, Saint Lucia, Ibu, my warm family, good friends, and all of you who have supported me for all the time. Ily, ily ♥

4. Emmmmm, nothing, emmm one thing, emmm, I think, nothing. Hahahaha forget it :3:3

~P.s: I miss my daddy already :(

EXCITED ENOUGH ♡☺♥

Well I am just excited enough to share about this
Isn't it sweeeeeeeeeeeeet?
Ohmy....

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"Girls are so simple yet complex, so weird yet beautiful"
One word
AGREED

Wish all the dreams we hope someday truly happen,
the happiness, the success, the man, the wedding, the family, everything :)
Love you Mira Neza Tante Oka Fara Cicin Yanti Dhea ♥
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♡ One of my delight ♡

♡hellongtimenoblog♡
I've had nephews
Yea I am an amazing aunt B-)

By the name of Matias, Moses, and Mikael
I found out that many people like them
And to me,
I love them even they hardly give up to pissed me off

So, last night was a crazy night for us
Having ice cream on our tummy, we went to the G-fun
They're so happy until they found it hard to breath anymore
You know what?
♡It's one of my delight♡



And the score is.............!!!!


Pasti Moses lah yang menang
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