Aku Ingin - Sapardi Djoko Damono

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

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Just another to-be-honest, baru ngeh ada puisi sebagus ini waktu kuliah (shoot me in the head) pertama kali dapet pas retret di Puncak kemaren, disuruh perform musikalitas gitu kan, tp pas lagi stuck abis, terus minta wangsit dari Mbah Google deh, dan nemu puisi ini. Pertama kali liat, baca, langsung damn.. parah. Sakit banget ni puisi. Dan lagi-lagi Pak Djoko, untuk kali ini Djoko Darmono, thanks Pak puisinya, luar biasa mengguncang. Zillions thumbs up! Alabyu, pak!

Nothing

Hey, how are ya doin'?
Does everything stay well?
Stay fine? :)

Me just done studying, and I don't know I think I'm addicted to you, blogger. You are the only thing that I want to kiss firstly when these heaps of boredom strike me. Well to be honest my tonight-study should haven't finished yet. But oh dear, please just give me a break for a while, I'm deadly stuck here. I am not that nerd. So, let's postpone it. (don't tell my dad) Anyway, I couldn't have a call with anyone tonight. Yea just like everyone's talking, there's one damned provider getting effed up. It became usual receiving messages one hour or maybe two hours late. Geez. They must be stop kidding :l The second anyway is, I'm back missing my mother. Aghhhh. What the hell is going with me??? Anyone??? Can you explain??? Ergh. I hate being childish like this. SO NOT ANY KIND OF ME. It really reminds me of what I were. Oh please, stop it, God?

That picture's taken about 5 years or maybe six in Kaliurang, Jogjakarta
She hold me, hugged me right from the back of my waist
She smiled, not for me
But for everyone who is looking at this pict
She wanted to tell everyone that she loved me
Aight?

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Well I can't help my self from tears
Goodbye.

Lootja xx

Another rainy story..

Here all me
With a thick sweater I wore
A cup of coffee ready to drink
Listening to John Mayer's

Mom,

I'm just wondering why the raindrops always fall in the evening lately
Good moment, good time, they used to accompany me napping
It's cold.. So, hows there? Is it cold, like here?
I believe you're doing good right there :)

There, in our room in our second hometown
In the rainy days like this is the warm moment I get from you
You used to cooked me something even just a simple soup
Well, I officially miss you

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Mom, I am actually afraid
I am afraid I can't stand it if I am in ruins
My head's overwhelmed by theories and messes
They always try to weaken my knees

Aside, I know I am in limitation
No, it's not about association limitation, a serious illness or what
It's not about mine but them
I've been realizing, that I have no much time anymore
It's counting down.. I know

I envy with my siblings
With our far birth spacing between me and my brothers
They've had their enough time with you, and dad
But It's sad seeing what they're doing

I am not going to say that my life is not fair, I am not
I know It's not fair for others esp them who don't have family
But sometimes I couldn't say I am that glad happily
I couldn't say my day was great
when everything for me was only good
Tell me what's happening Mommy..

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Pray for me and my mom, Saint Lucia
Always show me the right way
Lootja xx

Me want you! Short haircut!

Kyaaaa
Me really want that short-fake-haircut ~('.'~) (~'.')~
But my daddy says no, and no and no *sigh
Oh man I'm craving for the best short haircut
Anyone would to flatter my daddy?

Lootja Xx

Honey Bee

► Zee Avi - Honey Bee

I am a honey bee
Shunned off from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen♥

Sweet lyrics, aight?
Get the song here!

Aaa I want to be a good guitarist
My best friend often teach me how to play
But ergh It never give a significant progress
Me sucks --
I have to learn guitar seriously
I DO HAVE TO!
But when? La la laa (let's singing)
Well, maybe somedayyyy haha
what kind of answer --

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Lootja xx