Another rainy story..

Here all me
With a thick sweater I wore
A cup of coffee ready to drink
Listening to John Mayer's

Mom,

I'm just wondering why the raindrops always fall in the evening lately
Good moment, good time, they used to accompany me napping
It's cold.. So, hows there? Is it cold, like here?
I believe you're doing good right there :)

There, in our room in our second hometown
In the rainy days like this is the warm moment I get from you
You used to cooked me something even just a simple soup
Well, I officially miss you

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Mom, I am actually afraid
I am afraid I can't stand it if I am in ruins
My head's overwhelmed by theories and messes
They always try to weaken my knees

Aside, I know I am in limitation
No, it's not about association limitation, a serious illness or what
It's not about mine but them
I've been realizing, that I have no much time anymore
It's counting down.. I know

I envy with my siblings
With our far birth spacing between me and my brothers
They've had their enough time with you, and dad
But It's sad seeing what they're doing

I am not going to say that my life is not fair, I am not
I know It's not fair for others esp them who don't have family
But sometimes I couldn't say I am that glad happily
I couldn't say my day was great
when everything for me was only good
Tell me what's happening Mommy..

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Pray for me and my mom, Saint Lucia
Always show me the right way
Lootja xx